Peace Out 2009

It’s been a little quiet here for the past couple days. Because it happened again. Another tragedy in 2009. A friend and Florida blogger lost her two year old son in a very sudden pool accident.

It simply left me speechless.

Shellie and I met this year at a blogger event. She is wonderful. Recently, she promised me I could come watch the next shuttle launch from her beautiful front porch. She had just moved into her new home. She sent me a picture and its stunning. And now this happens.

Nothing shifts the world off its axis more than the passing of a child.

Nothing.

And unfortunately I have seen two other mothers lose their beautiful babies this year too.

First there was Maddie.

And then there was Maggie.

As if I got by unscathed. As if tragedy couldn’t touch my world either. As if.

2009 reared it’s ugly head with mighty force mid-year when my mother passed away.

I thought I understood how it felt to mourn. I was so wrong. I still feel like the world froze in its place on July 25th and now I’m looking around, blinking with surprise, asking “What’s with all the Christmas stuff? Summer isn’t over. No way. My mom JUST died. What the hell is going on here?”

And then, right before Thanksgiving, with visions of healing holiday joy dancing in our heads, news about Anissa‘s brain bleed was shared. And to say that her future is uncertain… well. That would be an enormous understatement. She is amazing, her improvements are mind boggling. But still, my friend is in a hospital simply trying to communicate when I know she’d rather be home raising her children and tweeting about bewbs.

In between all of this, there have unposted tough times too. A best friend moved away, friends have had miscarriages, there have been broken hearts, dramas, and far too many lost jobs.

So I was already counting down to the end of 2009. Totally ready to wipe my hands of it, away with you, don’t let it hit ya where the good Lord split ya.

And then this.

So. Now. For real. Sure, yes, there have been some great highlights to this year but I am so done. SO DONE. So pissed and angry and hateful for all the sad that has unfolded, one month after another. It’s outrageous.

Enough.

Peace out 2009.

And 2010? Karma kind of owes a few people one helluva year. Here’s hoping.

To those who have lost loved ones or suffered a tragedy or loss this year, my heart is with you.